Ok, if you can’t handle sappy, leave now. Thats your warning.
This is a letter to my son William, on his 1rst birthday…
Dear Will,
Happy birthday little man! You have given me so much joy in this past year. You have grown, and changed and I am so proud of you! You are beautiful, and I can’t imagine my life without you. There aren’t enough words to express my love for you. I never though that the english language would fall this flat, but when I look at you or your sister, its only emotion, not language. You are so happy. You play with everything, and everyone. You smile at all the old ladies at the grocery store. You wave on command. When you wake up in the morning, you wrap your arms around me and sunggle your warm baby lips into my neck, and go limp, and so do I. I want to cry. I am not sure why. It might be the passing of your babyhood, this great milestone of one whole year on Earth. It might be the man I see you becoming. It is hard for me not to smile when I see you. You are funny when you are naughty, and its hard to be mad. You are determined. You are smart, you will sit and solve problems, its amazing to watch. You are so much like your daddy. You are sweet, and cheerful, almost by default. You have been such a pleasant baby to have. You have the most beautiful blue eyes, they are deep and honest, and people stop to comment on them. Your skin is soft and supple, its smells of baby soap and lotion, and that sweet milk smell that is so unique to babies. I remember when you were born, we lay in my hospital bed, and napped together. I spent 3 days holding you, and loving you, and I will always cherish those memories. My beautiful boy, I don’t want you to grow up, but at the same time I do. I know I will be proud of you. I know I will always love you, and I hope I can be the kind of mom that you will cherish. When I married daddy I never knew I could love so much. Then Ella came, and my heart doubled, and when you were born, our family embraced you, and we all wrapped you up into our collective heart, its almost as if life is too good. I have to admit there are tears running down my face. When you have a family and you are the amazing person I know you will be, I know you will understand why. You and Ella are my heart incarnate. Its at once exhilarating and terrifying to see you in the world, making your way. William, my little man, my peanut, my sweet boy, happy birthday. I love you.
Mommy
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June 13, 2008 at 5:24 pm
Meghan, You do have a way with words. I’ve finally found someone else besides my mom that makes me tear up or just plain ol’ cry when I read your writings! Keep it up. Will and Ella definitely will appreciate you both as parents the more they grow up. I know they already do. You are both amazing parents and I know your kids will have a life that they are very proud of. I’m glad to know you and Shawn and I hope we will stay in touch even though I will not be able to work with Shawn anymore. Be strong…this is a good milestone! -Nicky